Sad News mixed with some positive thinking: Intensati class

Funny how life changes at an instant. I learned that back in 2008 when my Godmother passed away and my life severely changed. After a lot of soul searching, talking and grieving I got through it with the help of family and friends. 

Yesterday I was going about my day, going to kickboxing and then Trader Joe's. My sister was trying to get me to drive out to Long Island, but something about the rain made me want to stay curled on the couch. I called Danny and told him to come home early (which is a daily occurrence) and he said he would. This usually means a half hour early for him if he agrees. He's been working his butt off the past couple of weeks.

When he walked in the door at 3 o'clock yesterday I was so elated. As soon as I turned the key in the door, I was like wow he actually left work, this never happens. He walked in and then dropped a bomb. My grandma passed away. I sat there in shock and said a lot of choice words I won't repeat. My grandma has been in hospice for a couple of weeks, but no one thought it would be this fast. I can't even been to explain the weight this has on me because I don't even understand or believe it at this point, so I'm not going to write about it...for now. 

Danny and I packed up our stuff to stay at my mom's. My mom's house is a place of comfort and ease and the location is just easier in regards to where everything is relating to services. We have stayed at my mom's 3 times over the past year and a half for this reason. 

Fast forward to this morning...me sitting on the couch. I ate my yogurt and granola bar without even realizing it. Danny had to work a half day, so as my mom was getting ready for work I just sat. I debated between sitting or going to a workout class I had heard about through Missy.  I decided my sister would be the deciding factor. If she got up without too much of a fuss, I'd go. I went upstairs to wake her up by squeezing her nose so she couldn't breathe and she got up without too many complaints. We picked up Jess and headed to the class.  In typical fashion, we were late, but the class hadn't started yet so it was okay.  The class we took is called Intensati. I planned on taking it yesterday but was too tired to get it.

As we walked in, the instructor seemed super nice and greeted us. The first words we heard were, "today we are going to cultivate our own joy". I thought to myself..hmm maybe this is what I need today.  Seriously, this class was amazing. Not only was it a great workout, but every move had an affirmation that you repeated with it. Each one was so powerful, I could have cried at any one of them but I held it together. After an hour of powerful workout moves and affirmations I walked out feeling empowered to face today (which are the services). I can't really explain how the affirmations helped me, but they made me feel like everything I am feeling, shock, sadness, confusion, is okay and I will get through it. I believe in myself and I think my sister and cousin left feeling the same way. There are many different affirmation series and I feel like it was meant to be that today's was "The Power of Joy". 

Every day in a very true way I co-create my reality

As above so is below this is what I know.

Yes! I am bragging

I am worth it

I am happy

I deserve it

I’m committed

To loving me

When I honor myself

The world shifts around me

I am brilliant

I am proud

I am sexy

I am allowed

To use my power

To shine

To attract greatness

I am divine

Today I choose

To know the truth about myself

No matter how beautiful it is

I am blessed

I am divine

I am beautiful

I love my life

Each affirmation (each line) had a different move that went with it. And as yo did the move you would repeat the affirmation. It might sound silly and usually I'm not into this stuff, but trust me it was super powerful. 

(pics taken with Jess's phone, sorry for blurriness)

So thanks Connie for introducing me to an amazing class. I look forward to taking this again. Check out the Intensati page for a class near you. If you need a pick me up and some positive thinking then this is what you need.

So today is going to be a super, super long day. I dread this.