Funny how life changes at an instant. I learned that back in 2008 when my Godmother passed away and my life severely changed. After a lot of soul searching, talking and grieving I got through it with the help of family and friends.
Yesterday I was going about my day, going to kickboxing and then Trader Joe’s. My sister was trying to get me to drive out to Long Island, but something about the rain made me want to stay curled on the couch. I called Danny and told him to come home early (which is a daily occurrence) and he said he would. This usually means a half hour early for him if he agrees. He’s been working his butt off the past couple of weeks.
When he walked in the door at 3 o’clock yesterday I was so elated. As soon as I turned the key in the door, I was like wow he actually left work, this never happens. He walked in and then dropped a bomb. My grandma passed away. I sat there in shock and said a lot of choice words I won’t repeat. My grandma has been in hospice for a couple of weeks, but no one thought it would be this fast. I can’t even been to explain the weight this has on me because I don’t even understand or believe it at this point, so I’m not going to write about it…for now.
Danny and I packed up our stuff to stay at my mom’s. My mom’s house is a place of comfort and ease and the location is just easier in regards to where everything is relating to services. We have stayed at my mom’s 3 times over the past year and a half for this reason.
Fast forward to this morning…me sitting on the couch. I ate my yogurt and granola bar without even realizing it. Danny had to work a half day, so as my mom was getting ready for work I just sat. I debated between sitting or going to a workout class I had heard about through Missy. I decided my sister would be the deciding factor. If she got up without too much of a fuss, I’d go. I went upstairs to wake her up by squeezing her nose so she couldn’t breathe and she got up without too many complaints. We picked up Jess and headed to the class. In typical fashion, we were late, but the class hadn’t started yet so it was okay. The class we took is called Intensati. I planned on taking it yesterday but was too tired to get it.
As we walked in, the instructor seemed super nice and greeted us. The first words we heard were, “today we are going to cultivate our own joy”. I thought to myself..hmm maybe this is what I need today. Seriously, this class was amazing. Not only was it a great workout, but every move had an affirmation that you repeated with it. Each one was so powerful, I could have cried at any one of them but I held it together. After an hour of powerful workout moves and affirmations I walked out feeling empowered to face today (which are the services). I can’t really explain how the affirmations helped me, but they made me feel like everything I am feeling, shock, sadness, confusion, is okay and I will get through it. I believe in myself and I think my sister and cousin left feeling the same way. There are many different affirmation series and I feel like it was meant to be that today’s was “The Power of Joy”.
Every day in a very true way I co-create my reality
As above so is below this is what I know.
Yes! I am bragging
I am worth it
I am happy
I deserve it
I’m committed
To loving me
When I honor myself
The world shifts around me
I am brilliant
I am proud
I am sexy
I am allowed
To use my power
To shine
To attract greatness
I am divine
Today I choose
To know the truth about myself
No matter how beautiful it is
>I am blessed
I am divine
I am beautiful
I love my life
Each affirmation (each line) had a different move that went with it. And as yo did the move you would repeat the affirmation. It might sound silly and usually I’m not into this stuff, but trust me it was super powerful.
(pics taken with Jess’s phone, sorry for blurriness)
So today is going to be a super, super long day. I dread this.
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Thinking of you <3
So sorry for your loss.
Oh I'm so sorry about your grandma. I'm glad you were able to find some peace and empowerment this morning – that's a beautiful affirmation.
Take care.
Aw Nicole, thinking of you but sure sounds like you have an amazing family who will all pull through this together. Hugs xoxo
Thinking of you today…
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are certainly in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss and my thoughts are with you and your family. Hang in there honey.
Oh I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.
My heartful sympathy goes out to you and your family. May the beauty and strength of your grandmother always inspire you.
Fondly,
Connie
Oh honey, I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you were able to find some solace in your class – affirmations can do wonders and I really like the ones you did in class.
Oh Nicole, I am so sorry. I am glad you found some inspiration and positive energy through all of it. Please know that I am thinking about you and your family.
Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your loss – thank you for sharing how you're getting through it one step at a time…
I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I'm sorry to hear this, nicole. i will be praying for you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss :'(–you are in my thoughts, sweetie..that is never ever easy.
The affirmation is beautiful.
So sorry Nicole for the hard time you are going thru. I am glad your class helped you, and thx for what you told me about me/my blog. I am here for you in any way i can be…((((HUGS))))
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad that the class helped you, and it sounds like the perfect affirmation for this difficult time.
Nicole, you and your family are in my thoughts. I am so sorry for you loss. Hugs
I am so sorry for your loss girl!
I am so glad that the class helped you. Sounds like a great affirmation for a tough time. Hugs & prayers!!
Oh Nicole I'm so sorry girl. I'll be thinking about you and your family. Lot's of hugs.
I am so so sorry for your loss
Thinking of you.
And this is a beautiful post.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like it was the perfect day for an Intensati class. Sending you a big virtual hug.
I'm so sorry to hear about this – losing someone you love is the hardest thing that can happen in your life,; trust me, I know. Stay strong and let yourself grieve however you need to!
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